Torrie Though: Bur.
My name is Torrie. I have lived in the mid-west for 20 years and I still hate the cold.
It doesn’t get any easier being a mid-westerner your whole life. Summer comes to a disappointing end, fall is never long enough and then BAM the sorrows of winter begin and we live in them for about 4 months.
What are the sorrows of winter you ask? Well Lets see scraping your car in below 0 weather. Freezing your ass off walking less then a block. Feeling your nose tingling from being so cold. Being forced to stay inside because your yard is covered in 10 inches of snow. The roads aren’t anything less of death traps covered in ice and snow. Plus, everybody agrees that no one drive. The list could go on.
So I get asked a lot why do I still live here if I dread the cold so much. I suppose my family, boyfriend, and friends are here. I go to school here and am comfortable with my life. And in all honesty the mid-west sees some of the most beautiful Summers and Falls (when the Falls decide to last). The people are all so friendly and welcoming and it truly is a great place to live…. minus the cold.
I suppose over the years I have learned to deal with the cold. I know how to bundle up appropriately and have come to terms with the fact that fashion doesn’t count in the Winter. As cute as my leggings and Steve Madden boots are that is not happening until the weather reaches above 40 degrees.
But when the cold reaches negative temperatures none of my coping skills for the cold will just it and all I can this is BURRRRR!
To my fellow mid-westerners stay warm. It’s cold out there!
Cancer - A disease the whole world has come to accept is a disease that will forever steal our loved ones away from us.
Some believe Cancer is a work of God - A way to keep the natural balance in world population.
Others believe Cancer is a work of Nature - The same idea of keeping the natural balance of human life.
The conspiracy advocates believe the cure to Cancer exist and has long been discovered, but the government, Illuminati, or whoever works to cover and hide that cure in an effort to keep the world in safe and healthy populations.
No matter what a persons thoughts are on Cancer the common knowledge that a cure to Cancer may never be with in reach is accepted. Though we may not be able to cure cancer, we can put it into remission with the use of therapies. Society works donating and raising money in an effort to make these therapies more readily available as well as expand the research of these therapies to find better and more successful ways of putting cancers into remission.
It’s hard to imagine a world where nobody has to die from Cancer. A world where Cancer was just like any other disease where you go to the doctor get your medicine and are cured of your disease in a fairly short period of time. We have for so long lived in a society that has adjusted thoughts and beliefs of the disease in order to accept the fact that Cancer will always poison and kill our loved ones and the best we can do is catch it early enough to treat it and put it into remission.
But what if this thought was completely re-altered? What if it has been done? What if doctors and scientist have really found the cure to Cancer? What if a society in which Cancer doesn’t have to make our loved ones suffer and take them away from us exists and is close with in reach for the entire world’s society?
A world with no Cancer…. Can it be?
Emma and her family and her doctors believe it can be, and you can too. Take a few minutes to watch this video. It is truly unbelievable and has a possibility of completely altering a world wide societal attitude and idea. It’s almost scary to believe.
Torrie Thought -
Anybody else feeling like this today?
To start off I would like to say Tumblr, I am so sorry for neglecting you over the past three weeks. I have been seeing other social networking sites and have failed to recognize you, and for that I am sorry.
But I am back now! Unfortunately, my head is not full of thoughts, rather today it is full of behavioral statistics hypothesis tests and null hypotheses. Real interesting stuff you guys. Stuff that I will be sure to use often in my future and stuff that is really benefiting my education…. said no statistic student ever.
I had a statistics test today and I feel really good about it! I spent about 12 hours over Thanksgiving break studying specifically statistics and I feel really good about my test today but with math I’m normally wrong so I probably didn’t do very well…. but what can I do now except blog about it.
Speaking of Thanksgiving break - Why do colleges even call it a break? I had a 10 page paper to write for sociological inquiry and 3 chapters of math to study my butt off for so I can bring my grade up from a B- before the end of the semester. Not much of a break. Just a break from being required on classes. LAME!
But no worries only 2 MORE WEEKS till WINTER BREAK people! That is 5 whole weeks of NO SCHOOL! God, I can not even imagine. And I can not even believe how quickly this semester has flown by. I am not going to complain about it though and I am going to simply enjoy it.
When I said Torrie Thought - AHHHHHHHH! I wasn’t kidding. My brain is scattered today much like this blog, but I am sure that is something most of you can relate too.
Thought Today (I’ll make it quick I promise): Gift Giving is my Gift
Quickly just want to pump my self up to my readers so you can all get a better feel of who this Torrie girl is with all these thoughts.
This Torrie is a kick-ass gift giver!
My boyfriends little sister is 15 today. She is having a slumber/birthday party with her friends Friday night to celebrate the occasion. I have been dating my boyfriend for over a year and have fallen just as much in love with his family as I have him and his little sister holds a special place in my heart. I was the coach for her volleyball team and her and I have really become close over the past year.
Inevitably, I had to get her an awesome present, and I did! So my boyfriends sister has this thing with owls… yeah I don’t get it either. I’m assuming it’s one of those weird teenage girl fads. She has this case for her ipod touch that’s an owl and she loves it! She is always commenting on how cute it is and how she loves owls and statements of that nature. Using my Pinterest obsession I found her the most amazing owl birthday gift ever. Its an owl satchel and it is adorable! It is made in the U.S. made from real leather (so it will last as long as this weird owl obsession does) and I found it on ebay for 40 bucks in purple!
It’s perfect! It’s cute! And I hope she likes it. Here is the thing about her though, if she doesn’t like it she will let me know. She has a bit of a teenage ‘tude if you know what I mean. But like I said, I am a kick-ass gift giver and I know she will love it! whoooooooooooooooo wouldn’t ;)
Here is a lazy thought: Keeping up with a blog is HARD!
Yes, it is ironic how I am blogging about how hard it is to keep up with a blog. It is actually kind of a contradiction, isn’t it? Well contradiction or not it is the TRUTH!
It’s a funny thing blogging. I still have yet to understand what would make anybody interested in what I have to say and think. I have all of six followers, all of which I am pretty sure are from my class room, and even they probably don’t take the time to read “Torrie Thoughts.” Quite honestly, I rarely take the time to read their blogs either. That is in no way meant to be offensive or mean. What I am trying to say is I just haven’t found my Tumblr swing yet.
It’s sort of like when you first create a Facebook, Twitter, Instagram or any account on a social network. You don’t just immediately know how it works, go on and update your account by the hour, share anything and everything… No, it takes time and patience to begin to fully utilize those social networks. Here is the problem for my Tumblr blog, it came into the social network running pretty late. I am already comfortable, familiar, and obsessed with my Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Pinterest, Snap Chat, so much so that my Tumblr blog simply just slips my mind until I open my planner and see I have a blog due for class. Even then I get distracted by my Facebook messages and new pins on Pinterest and Tumblr once again falls to the sideline.
Am I the only person who experiences this trouble blogging?
It’s my assumption that Tumblr becomes much more fun when you fully understand how to use it and its purpose (which I am still trying to decipher) and when you have followers who are actually interested in what you are blogging about and leave comments and likes on your blog.
I WANT THAT! LIKE MY BLOGS PEOPLE! That way I can become obsessed with Tumblr like I am with Instagram and I will never have a late blog post again ;)
Yes, yes, yes, to all the mother-thinkers out there I know the blog is my responsibility and I need to keep up with it and blah, blah, blah - I know, no excuses I am just simply stating to my followers take a minute to read my “Torrie Thoughts” and you might find they are incredibly relatable and then feel free to comment and like any part of my blogs and I will happily reply! In this “happily replying” stage I know I will find my Tumblr swing and this blog will become one of my stay up till 1 o’clock am on a Monday obsessions!
Help me stay up till 1 o’clock am on Monday nights and wake up Tuesday mornings at 6 o’clock am regretting it followers, all six of you! Help me find that Tumblr swing of things!
(Note - This is in no way supposed to sound sad and pathetic though reading back on it, it really does.)
Today’s thought: When are colleges going to figure out to spread it out?
School sucks. 9 out of 10 undergraduate college students can tell you that. It’s stressful, frustrating, overwhelming, time consuming, pointless at times, the list could go on but at this point I’ll stop because I might be stuck at this key board all day ;)
In all honesty school is all of those things but sometimes I feel like it doesn’t have too be. What makes school so overwhelming, stressful, frustrating and what not is that all the tests, papers, quizzes, mid-terms, finals, projects, presentations… they all seem to be due in the same 7 day span.
I posted a couple weeks ago how I literally could not find the time to post a blog because I had 2 tests and 2 papers due. I was glued to my designated spot in the library. If I got unglued it was only to re-glue my butt at my seat at Dunn Bros. Coffee shop to continue my school work. Why is it that school schedules all inevitably end up that way? The first 2 weeks of every month my stress level is almost 0. Besides the occasional homework assignment here and then I have the time to work, relax, and study on my own time and on my own terms which I find is how I most successfully study. Then comes the last 2 weeks of the month which equal hell for me. I have a statistics test, a paper due, an I/O psychology test, and this week throw in a midterm for sociology and a presentation for my playwrights of color class.
STRESS OVERLOAD! To say the least!
I want to do well in my classes. I want straight A’s a high GPA and good forecast for my educational future. That is all really hard to do when everything is due in the same week. I can not give each class the attention and consideration I want too. I find myself having to balance my studying and banking on test not being hard or being hard to determine how much time I spend studying and working on one class. That’s not right and my grades have reflected that in the past. Even at the beginning of my month with all that time I can study, and I do. The problem is each class has just begun a new section of material. I have no idea what material will be incorporated in the test. It isn’t until the approaching of the test (week 3) that students are given any form of information about the test or paper that will be given and due.
Frustrating is an understatement when I talk about this topic. The worst part is professors must know this problem exist through student whining and their past college education. My question is why do colleges continue to do this to students. It puts an incredible amount of pressure on students that isn’t healthy. Personally, breakdowns are not uncommon for me and I know that they are not uncommon for a lot of working, full time students.
Balancing school and work is hard enough. It becomes even harder when I am balancing statistics, sociology, theater, cyberliteracy, psychology AND work. I wish I could spread my tests and due dates out so everything I turn in I can truthfully say was given full attention and commitment. I would like that, my professors would like that, my GPA would like that which means my school would like that. This idea benefits everyone involved….. So why don’t we do it?
Something to think about college schools and professors.
Here is a thought, a loud, angry thought: WHAT IS WRONG WITH SOME PEOPLE!?!
Good lord, what a week and not in a good way.
As if Monday’s weren’t already difficult enough to overcome why don’t we just add a hit and run to my $10,000 dollar Volvo! Yup, you read right my beautiful car was hit and run Monday while I was in class. I came back to find my cars tail light shattered, bumper scrapped and bent. To top it off there was no note shoved in my windshield wiper, no form of communication at all from this gracious person who decided to hit my car and then drive away. So what am I left with… a damaged car, reporting a hit and run to the police, filing an insurance claim, paying a deductible, having my premium raised, all in all forking over about $1000 dollars total. $1000 dollars for damage to my car that I DIDN’T EVEN DO! I wasn’t even a part of an accident or was at fault in any way. What the heck? On top of this expense I still have a car payment, it’s the most “wonderful” time of the year again and I need to get gifts for my loved ones. I had JUST bought a ticket for a vacation in January to celebrate my birthday. A $1000 dollar expense, right now, at this exact moment in October, not so good!
A while back my best friend told me “9 out of 10 people don’t have consciences.” Think about that, that’s more than a majority of all the people we know and interact with on a daily basis. It’s an incredibly sad statistics and how valid it is, I’m not sure but I’ve got to say as I get older and wiser this statistics becomes more and more real to me. Example A: How can somebody knowing hit a parked car (There is no way the driver who hit my car didn’t know they had hit me) and just drive away? Where’s their conscience? How does their conscience not kick in and say “Okay, let’s do the right thing.” My conscience is constantly bugging me about doing the right thing even when it is really hard. Even I am guilty of bumping a car in a parking lot that left a minor dent but GUESS WHAT I left a note with my name and number and the woman called me and said to not worry about it and thanked me for my honesty. I might have done the same thing if the driver who hit me was honest and sincerely sorry. It baffles me how people can just walk away from situations like that and not expect any consequences. Let me say this to my hit and run driver… YES, you did escape me and my insurance company from charging your ass for my damage but there is one person you can’t escape no matter how fast you drive away. Her name is KARMA. I believe in karma 110% and I know she will find you no matter how fast you’re driving away.
Here’s a thought: Why is Monday so far away from Friday, but Friday is so close to Monday?
Oh my goodness, my apologies for taking a week off from tumblr. It is a relieving to know that I once again have the time and energy to type up a blog. Last week was close to the death of me with 2 test, and 2 papers due all in a 5 day span. Exhausted doesn’t even half way describe how I felt last week. Luckily, I made it out alive and am back up and running with lots of thoughts!
As a result of my last weeks school drowning session I honestly felt like it took a year before I finally had Friday with in my grasp. Somewhere between cutting and pasting my papers as well as flipping though my 900 flash cards it dawned on me just how unfair the weekend is to its long awaiting hard workers.
Let me start with Friday. Typically known as the first day of the weekend. To that I say WHATEVER! Every Friday I still am awoken by the obnoxious ping of my alarm clock at 6 o’clock in the morning. I continue my day with work, then off to school, then off to my second working job. I then come home around 6 o’clock pm and have not the slightest amount of ambition or energy to go out to a movie, or dinner, or a party. I’m dead! I’m beat! I fall face first into my bed and fall right asleep. What happens on that “first night of the weekend” is exactly what I do Monday-Thursday. No weekend shenanigans for me or anybody else who worked a long, normal, exhausting day.
Saturday: The REAL first official day of the weekend! Alright, now Saturday is where the weekend is at! I get to sleep in as late as I want, which is normally around 9:30-10 o’clock. I then proceed with my day to do nothing and pretend I have no responsibility! Saturday night I find the energy to get ready and go out! Knowing that Sunday I will once again be able to sleep in. I love Saturdays!
Sunday: A deceiving little weekend day! Sure, Sunday says “Sleep in as long as you want Torrie, but just remember tomorrow is Monday and you should probably get some studying done so you’re not crammed for the week and be sure to get early because you have to up at 6 am Monday.” I hate you Sunday! Just a constant reminder that I have another full week ahead of me and a full 6 days till Saturday finally arrives. Uhg.
So seriously, why is the weekend so short? Working America puts in 5 full working days and then is given 1 truly free day to sleep in and stay up late. Hardly seems fair to me! I suppose that’s why “they” say find a job that you really do love other wise life is gonna be long, and greatly dragged on. School would not be my first choice on how to spend a large portion of my week so I take my 2 years as an under-graduate as a lesson to work hard and finish my next 2 years on top of my game so I can then graduate and find a life/job that doesn’t drag on. A life where Monday becomes a little closer to Friday.
Here’s a thought: Why is everything that is so good, so bad?
I did it! Took my whole weekend off! No work, no library, no homework, no studying… I had a fantastic, relaxing weekend! One of my favorite things to do is bake. My mom and I spent our weekend gathering our “must try” Pinterest recipes and whipping them up. We obviously chose only those that included chocolate and that was a great decision. We made a chocolate cake, with vanilla cake balls mixed in with a vanilla buttercream frosting inside our cake and a chocolate buttercream frosting on the outside. It was delicious! I also made perhaps the greatest dessert of all time, coffee brownies! I have a severe coffee addiction and to mix that together with my chocolate addiction was an overdose I can’t wait to have again for dessert tonight. I am wearing sweatpants today in the fear I won’t be able to get my jeans to button.
Lost in my relaxing, chocolate filled weekend I had a very rude awakening into reality at 6 o’clock this morning. I went to work and now am sitting at school trying to control my heart rate. I made the mistake that had to be made and looked at my planner for this weeks assignments. A rough draft, a play response, an article summary, chapter 4 and an endless amount of reading. Lets not forget that I am working BOTH my jobs this week, have a volunteer shift, and now have assignments PLUS studying that needs to be completed.
Can somebody please tell me HOW you have this time to relax and yet still have the capability to stay onto of your responsibilities? I do like to make my way to caribou coffee or the library on my weekends off to stay on top of studies and now I feel like I am drowning. As we all know I am a bit of drama queen but even so, there is a lot of things to accomplish this week and of course never enough time.
Chocolate is so good. So pleasing, and delightful. The more chocolate I enjoy the more tight and uncomfortable my jeans become. Taking a weekend off and relaxing and not worrying was a utopia, but now I’m stuffed full of things to do. Why can’t it ever just be good with out the stab in the back? There has got to be a balance somewhere and I am out to find it!
For those of you who suffer from a coffee and chocolate addiction like myself, I encourage you to combine your addictions so you too can experience the incredible combination. Below is the link to the recipe, enjoy!
So here’s a thought: Why must I be such a drama queen?
I’ll admit I’ve been called a “drama queen” my whole life. I have this tendency to over react, and always expecting and assuming the worse. My previous post is a perfect example of that. I’m always freaking out and panicking when really there is nothing to be freaking or panicking about.
Why do I do that? I’ve never actually experienced a situations where I am correct. The worst has never happened to me yet (thankfully). My panicking ALWAYS is a waste of my time, stress, and sweat stains. I have to begin to use this tool called “relaxing.” It’s a word I am constantly hearing from family members, my boyfriend, school adviser, and pretty much anybody who knows anything about me. I’m starting to reach this point in my life where I am just plain TIRED! My life consist of work, school, volunteering. I need some me time. Some time to reflect and… relax. I struggle with this idea that I don’t need to be perfect; Life is short and I need to have some fun.
I’m sure “relaxing” is much easier blogged then done.
I do believe Anne Hathaway said it best though when she pointed out that we are all only human, and we are aloud to make mistakes, trip up, forget things. Well Anne, I’m going to try and do myself a favor and follow these advised words, because you are right! I am just a human and I can only do so much. I wish professors, bosses, and friends understood that as much as you.